Poems Of The Heart

Response to Barbie Doll by Marge Piercy,

Presented with two dolls, 

one slim with perfect curves; 

The other stout, with rolls that formed when she sat.

I reach for the one that looked just like me, 

but they swat my hand and say

No one wants something so ugly, fat, and chubby.

But I thought that the tubby short doll was cute.

I thought I was enough.

 Naive young girl, who dreamed with little knowledge of the beauty standard society had placed.

Now I’ve grown. Let the lesson be known.

I know not to eat so that I can look like the perfect doll. 

I know to fill my body with plastic, Face and all. 

Anything to look like that small barbie doll. 

They would reward me for it, looks and awes.

if I could just look like that pretty doll.

I asked am I finally enough to adore

now that I am made from plastic 

manufactured to be more. 

I pleaded I begged for someone to notice 

I had finally become what they all had wanted.

What I couldn’t see was I had destroyed myself, created a waste.

 Where was the little girl who loved her face?

Response to We Shoot Children Too, Don’t We?

No peace until ave side is wiped,
taught in school Palestine is wrong.
How could we have peace when one side full heartedly believes the other is wrong?

A hatred so potent it drips off the tongue. Spreading lies, spreading Fear. Fear, Fear, Fear.
No one should rest their head at night feeling
Fear.
Fear of being bombed overnight.

No peace, No home, No weapons.
but stones.
And still others support what they
Know is wrong.

Over there, yes there,
Palestinians home, now filled
with bones, and others
to take what they
own.

Failure and Fearing it.

The Real Fear in Fear of Failure: Part III - Dr. Jim Taylor

“When an anxious individual who fears being on display; faces failure and embarrassment, they would rather avoid the situation and miss the opportunity.”

The thesis above represents my life as I constantly fear embarrassment when in the eyes of my peers. Often, failure is an opportunity to allow embarrassment to occur. Like stumbling on a word in a presentation or tripping over yourself, little things like that embarrass me to the point where I would rather wear a paper bag over my head than be seen and face the mistake. Failure in anything takes a toll on my self-esteem and ego, even in school I am constantly facing this fear and when asked a question I would rather say “I don’t know.” Then risk being wrong about the answer in front of the class. Another example related to school would be when I need help, I’m so scared to let the teacher know I’ve failed in understanding what they’re teaching that I don’t get help and try to figure it out on my own. This constant fear of failing in front of others causes me to miss out on opportunities that I would otherwise enjoy partaking in.

Failure is a theme prevalent in everyone’s life, and often the advice associated with it is that it makes you better or you learn from your mistakes; but what if those mistakes are life-threatening? We are told from a young age that education is one of the most important things in life, to live a good life you must have a lot of success and money, which can only stem from a good education. Then we were placed into a school and taught to learn a certain way, which conforms to society’s way of “intelligent thinking”.Why Schools are setting us up for Failure | by Frederick Posimo | Student VoicesWhen you cannot achieve this standard set for you, failure is what you’re graded with, placing a label on yourself as dumb, or less capable than your peers. This can determine and direct the course of your future, because without good grades how will you manage to get a good job or provide a sustainable income for yourself?

For me, I constantly face this thought, it’s depressing and very discouraging but the truth. How can I escape society’s rationale and standards to still live like I please? The simple answer is I can’t. These grades determine my success and I fear them because most often their failing grades,  I don’t interpret the text the way society deems I should; so I fail, again and again. So if achieving only high nineties is the standard set for me, and I can barely come close to a seventy or low eighty, how can I not fear it. How can I fix what others deem acceptable? Why can’t I be happy with what I know rather than be constantly harassed for it? Who wouldn’t be afraid of failing if it’s determining their future position in societyDisplaying "My Life As A Thesis Statement" - Visual (Aug 29, 2021 at 5:34 PM)

Truly, I think the fear of failure comes from standards pre-set in our lives by others, without understanding or acknowledgment of our own needs and standards. And to not live up to these would be disappointing those who have set the standards oftentimes these are people we hold closest to our hearts. Thus I find it’s better to not try than to disappoint those most important to me.

Cites :

http://Pasimo, Fredrick. Why Schools Are Setting Us Up For Failure?. 2016, <img src=”https://miro.medium.com/max/1400/1*lf8ka5MkIaMa-YJXkDqJ3w.jpeg” alt=”Why Schools are setting us up for Failure | by Frederick Posimo | Student Voices”/>. Accessed 22 Sept 2021.

http://Taylor, Jim. The Real Fear In Fear Of Failure. https://www.drjimtaylor.com/4.0/wp-content/uploads/2020/09/fear-of-failure-1.jpg. Accessed 23 Sept 2021.