Author: kira895piffting

“When an individual is going through hardships they are often blinded by all the negative things that they have and only see the darkness and horrid things in front of them, like health issues both mental and physical -some people use some type of mask to hide the horrors to try and protect themselves”

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Everyone has to go through the struggles of darkness and hardships in their life, we often feel like our hurt would bother others so we put a mask on around others so they don’t see the struggles we’re going through. Typically people will act happy in front of others even when most of the time we have negative thoughts about situations we go through. This thesis statement is very representative of how human beings are always looking at the negative sides of things rather than finding the positive in everything. It shows that even if we do see the negative side we want to hide that fact by presenting as a positive person in front of others. 

I always find myself constantly worried about if I have annoyed my friends in some way and end up distancing myself from them out of fear of hatred and hurt. I am a very loud person and feel like I can often make people feel uncomfortable with my big personality. Most of the time I never annoyed them and I was just blindsided by my negative thoughts.

Another thing most recently I have been struggling with is my physical health. I have struggled with anemia for 3 years. For those who don’t know, anemia is the medical term for a more severe iron deficiency. I however got told recently that i could die in 2-5 months because of how low my iron is. You need iron to replicate red blood cells which is what you need in order to breathe as the red blood cells carry oxygen around your body so if you don’t have enough you can die. 

I Have been constantly worried about the fact I could die and have been watching everything I have eaten which reminds me of when I would count calories when I had an ED which made me think of many negative things instead of seeing positive things. I have used a mask and acted like everything is fine even if I have the heavy fear of death peeking over my shoulder and weighing on my back everyday. The good thing about my illness is that it is treatable and that it will help me to eat better and worry more about my physical health.