Facades of the World

Facades of the World

For my poetry seminar response I decided to respond to the poem “Siren Song” by Margaret Atwood and “The Child Before a Mirror of Strangers” by poet Wole Soyinka. The two poems share a connection of putting a facade into the world. The siren puts out a facade to achieve her concealed ambition, which is to draw in, trap, and eventually kill her victims. Likewise, the speaker in “The Child Before a Mirror of Strangers” shows the reader’s facade that they weren’t a child, and that they didn’t have a childhood. The speaker demonstrates this by saying “As if…” and listing off a common activity in childhood, showing the audience that an individual can easily forget about the various activities they did.

In the poem “Siren Song” by Canadian poet Margaret Atwood, the theme is the mask a person presents to the world may not truly be who the individual is. People may have ambitions they wish to pursue and don’t want others to know about. This theme is something I have experienced numerous times throughout my life. I too have put on a facade as I enter an environment- not necessarily to pursue my ambitions and kill sailors, per se- but so others can’t perceive my state of mind and what is occurring in my life.

More closely tied to the theme, the dance studio I’ve been with since it was founded started as a result of people masking their true ambitions. My previous studio had some younger instructors, along with my current instructors. The younger instructors wanted to teach more, and this led to my instructors getting a pay cut, even when my instructors had been professionally trained in Ukrainian dance and its teachings. This was decided about a week before classes were set to start and everyone was taken by surprise! No one even thought that something like this could happen because their positions had always been very secure. This led us to start a new studio – the one that I currently attend- as we wished to continue learning dance from instructors that had more experience. In “Siren Song” the siren’s facade of concealing her ambitions negatively impacts the sailor (as he ends up dead). Contrarily, although the facade initially impacted my instructors negatively, in the end they got to teach and create dance the way they wanted to, without limitations. 

Similarly in “The Child Before a Mirror of Strangers” by Wole Soyinka, the adult in the poem puts out a facade that they weren’t a kid. At the end of the poem and throughout the poem it is shown that this negatively impacts them. The poet discusses how children are growing up too soon, and are forgetting the essence of childhood- the joy, the laughter, the sorrow, and the growth; what it truly means to be a child. I think everyone has, at least once, thought,

“I wish I was older,”

when they were much younger. One might have wished for more opportunities and freedom to do what they want. Yet, as people grow up they tend to only remember all the bad things that happened as a kid, and not the joys that were experienced.

As an elementary student I couldn’t wait to be able to speak Spanish and learn how to say things to my friends without the other grades knowing what I was saying, but now when I reminisce it’s easier to remember the fights I had with friends, or when I missed out on celebrations, or when I got sick. It’s easy for me to forget about the anticipation that filled me as a young child, excited to learn a new language. Entering my senior year of high school, it is easy to only remember the bad parts of childhood, and put on a facade that I didn’t have a childhood, or that my childhood was unenjoyable, like some of the children discussed in the poem. I think that this act of self-denial and selectively picking poor memories might be a way in which I don’t disappoint my younger self.

I don’t use Spanish to secretly talk with my friends, I don’t go out with my friends every night, I don’t drive, and I’m not very independent; I simply don’t do many of the things I thought I would do in high school.

I believe I pick these memories so that I don’t disappoint myself with all the expectations I set for myself when I was younger.

Surrounded by societal expectations it is easy for an individual to give themself a facade or present a masked version of themself. These two poems demonstrate the two types of facades that people face: the ones they give themselves, and the ones they share with the world. As much as we wish not to have to put up these masks, I believe we do it to protect ourselves;  to prevent the fuss and comments of everyday life from getting in the way of our lifestyle, to hide our true feelings and be able to fit in. These crucial ideas are demonstrated in “Siren Song” by Margaret Atwood where the siren uses her facade to conceal her ambitions and fit in with the sailor to ultimately kill him. It is also demonstrated in “The Child Before a Mirror of Strangers” by Wole Soyinka, as the adult audience is called out for putting a facade into the world that they didn’t have a childhood. They attempt to convince others that they weren’t able to enjoy all these fun activities (when they did) and they are just trying to protect themselves from the feeling of disappointing their younger selves.

As much as one might wish that there wasn’t a need to put up these facades, I personally believe that we do it to protect ourselves, and to guarantee that the fuss and comments of everyday life don’t get in the way of our activities. Perhaps, it is also done to hide our true feelings and to fit in- which isn’t always a bad thing. However, the overuse of such facades as demonstrated in “Siren Song” by Margaret Atwood, can be detrimental to those around you. In this poem, the siren uses her facade to conceal her ambitions and kill the sailor. In real life, these facades can also prevent an individual from experiencing valuable relationships! This is also demonstrated in “The Child Before a Mirror of Strangers” by Wole Soyinka, as the adult audience is called out for putting the facade into the world that they didn’t have a childhood, or that they weren’t able to enjoy all these fun activities that they actually did enjoy, when they are simply trying to protect themselves from the feeling of disappointing their younger selves. Facades are a way many people protect themselves from disappointment and judgement, both in literature and the world. 

 

Citations
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Ellis, Ed. “Ukrainian Shumka Dancers.” Photograph. The Canadian Encyclopedia 7 Feb. 2006. 24 May 2023 <https://www.thecanadianencyclopedia.ca/en/article/ukrainian-shumka-dancers>
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Life Fulfillments

Life Fulfillments

“There is some good in this world, and its worth fighting for.” J.R.R Tolkien.

This quotation is from the novel “The Two Towers,” part of the “Lord of the Rings” series, that conveys success. There are many cases of visions of evil that one ring brings upon people. This quotation is said after hobbits Merry and Pippin are forced to use the ring to obtain ultimate power. There are multiple issues with the ring within the series, but the most important part is in this book. The two towers, Barad-Dur and Orthanc, are based on the setting where this takes place. So, Mr. Frodo and Sam were discussing whether the approach to escape was wrong, which led to many exchanges of context.

This discussion talked about thrilling tales, where stories are moStepping Out Of Your Comfort Zone - Wellbeing Lifestly full of gloom and darkness. Sam is just afraid of how it will turn out, but there is always an inspiration to continue. This quote to Mr. Frodo showcases how Sam is willing to wait for many bright things to happen that tend to change favorably. There is always perseverance to move forward that can’t be stopped.

Relating to me, I’m willing to fight for what I want and have good discipline with whatever I want to achieve. I tend to be someone who wants to be successful and enjoy watching my classes run smoothly.

For school work, there are many challenges I face while working, but I’m willing to get through them to succeed. Since many good things are waiting to happen, I should take that chance to find them.

While also doing martial arts, you can’t give up when things are tough. You must have faith in your abilities to do something right. Aikido is a tough sport that requires determination and discipline to level up belts quicker, but I haven’t stopped yet.

I’m going to keep trying to be proud of where I am and what I do. I’ll show myself and others that I’m a productive individual who aspires to achieve my goals in the future.

Beautiful Things Can Happen When We Step Outside Our Comfort Zone

Even though it takes much time and effort, I’m willing to attempt to find the wonderful deeds waiting for me to share my identity. I won’t give up on them, and that’s a promise to keep.

“We accept the love we think we deserve”- Stephen Chboksy

This quotation is from the book/movie “The Perks of a Wallflower, in which Charlie, the main character, is an antisocial teen and a wallflower in society. Watching how life goes within his high school years and where friendships are gained and lost. He starts to experiment  with drugs and revisits past emotional thoughts and moments. He faces many issues with his mental health and his identity as a person. The quote is spoken to Charlie by Bill.

Then Charlie asks his English teacher about “Why do good people sometimes pick friends that treat them like garbage?” The teacher answers his question with this specific quote. Charlie is basically asking about his sister’s  abusive and violent relationships.

Beautiful Things Of The Heart.

Life in general can be very difficult for all, and people should be given the chance to appreciate it the right way. Society thinks you should find someone to love and stick with them.

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However, deserved love is earned when you gradually feel worthy enough. But at times, it isn’t a good idea, since we think it’s good but are a little too ignorant to see that it isn’t. People should have the confidence to find someone who treats them with respect.

For me, I’m willing to accept that what we have isn’t working and stand for what should be given, specifically friendships. Many untrustworthy friends lead to fake relationships and being unwanted. So I’m willing to accept who I am and not shift my personality for anyone. No relationship becomes perfect, and use confidence to express your real friends.

 

 

Citations:

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The Tragic Consequence of Determined Love

The Tragic Consequence of Determined Love

The Great Gatsby, written by F. Scott Fitzgerald in 1925, is a novel that continues to captivate readers with its themes of love, wealth, and the American Dream. The story follows the life of Jay Gatsby, a wealthy man who throws extravagant parties in hopes of winning back his former love, Daisy Buchanan. Through the character of Gatsby, Fitzgerald develops several ideas regarding the way in which individuals pursue their happiness. Gatsby’s pursuit of happiness, driven by his true love for Daisy, is admirable and selfless, but it also comes with its own set of sacrifices and challenges. The novel is a reminder of the brittleness of love, the sacrifices that go along with it, and the repercussions of not being responsible for one’s actions. The book also offers criticism of the traditions and societal standards of the time and how they can limit one’s ability to pursue happiness.

 

Gatsby’s pursuit of happiness is portrayed as romantic and admirable. He throws lavish parties and spends his fortune in an attempt to win back Daisy’s love. Gatsby’s decision to throw these parties is a display of his wealth and status, but it also functions as a way for him to show Daisy how much he cares for her and how much he wants to win her back. The parties serve as a means for Gatsby to impress Daisy and to show her that he is still the man she fell in love with years ago. Furthermore, Gatsby’s decision to spend his fortune on these parties also highlights his willingness to go to great lengths to win Daisy back and how much he is willing to sacrifice for his love. As they live in the surplus and luxury of the Roaring Twenties, Gatsby’s choice to throw these parties also serves as a reflection on the societal norms and conventions of the time. His choice to do so emphasizes the idea that people are frequently constrained by societal rules and expectations. The fact that Gatsby chose to disregard social norms and organize these parties shows how eager he was to defy convention in order to be with Daisy.

 

Gatsby faces hardships and makes sacrifices in his quest for happiness. He makes a number of compromises, including overlooking Daisy’s affairs and her marital status. Because of his sincere and genuine love for Daisy, Gatsby is prepared to ignore her imperfections in order to maintain his feelings for her. This reinforces the point that finding true love is not always simple and that people frequently make compromises in order to do it. Additionally, Gatsby’s decision to disregard Daisy’s dishonesty in her relationship with Tom demonstrates his willingness to disregard social norms and expectations in the name of his love for Daisy. This highlights how Gatsby’s pursuit of happiness is not just driven by his love for Daisy, but also by his desire to be with her regardless of societal expectations. Gatsby’s decision to overlook Daisy’s infidelities and her status as a married woman serves as an example of the sacrifices that individuals make in pursuit of true love and happiness. It highlights the complexity of love and how it may not always conform to societal conventions and expectations.

 

In the end, Mr. Gatsby’s quest for contentment results in his terrible death. George Wilson, who incorrectly thinks Gatsby is to blame for the loss of his wife Myrtle, shoots him. The passing of Gatsby acts as an illustration of the fragility of love and the costs involved. It also highlights how decisions made by other characters in the book have effects. Daisy ultimately decides to remain with Tom, her husband, rather than leaving him for Gatsby, despite his sincere love for her. In addition, rather than coming clean to defend herself and her reputation after Myrtle is killed, Daisy decides to let Gatsby take the fall. This further emphasizes the tragic consequences of Gatsby’s love for Daisy and the sacrifices he made for her. It also highlights the selfishness and lack of moral principles in Daisy’s character, who chooses to prioritize her own happiness and reputation above all else, ultimately leading to Gatsby’s tragic end. Gatsby’s death represents a reminder of the fragility of love and the sacrifices that come with it, as well as the consequences of the choices made by the characters in pursuit of their own happiness.

 

In conclusion, the character of Jay Gatsby, as portrayed by F. Scott Fitzgerald in his famous novel “The Great Gatsby,” serves as a powerful example of the lengths to which individuals will go in pursuit of true love and happiness. Through Gatsby’s actions and motivations, Fitzgerald masterfully develops the idea that the pursuit of happiness is often driven by deep emotions, such as love. Gatsby’s pursuit of Daisy, his true love, is both admirable and selfless, as he is willing to sacrifice everything in order to be with her. However, this pursuit also comes with its own set of challenges and sacrifices. Gatsby’s determined pursuit of Daisy ultimately leads to his downfall, as he is unable to fully realize that his dream of being with her is unattainable. The novel serves as a powerful reminder of the fragility of love and the sacrifices that come with it. Through Gatsby’s character, Fitzgerald expertly portrays the complexities of human emotions and the lengths to which one will go to achieve happiness and love. The novel is a timeless classic, that continues to resonate with readers even today. It is a powerful message on the nature of human emotions and the lengths to which people will go in pursuit of love and happiness.

 

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A LETTER TO AMBITION

A LETTER TO AMBITION

To the text, “The Great Gatsby”, what does this text suggest about the impact of an individual’s impact on self and others?

 


Dear Ambition,

Time steals. Time flies. But does it really heal?

Death, Flower 1080P, 2K, 4K, 5K HD wallpapers free download, sort by  relevance | Wallpaper FlareJust as I was shot, my life flashed before my eyes. I thought, “But I was so close.” Now, as I’m laying in this putrid-smelling box, I realize only I can smell it. In the world of the living, this scent is covered by flowers. Ambition, why must you render me so blind to my surroundings? You fooled me with the smell of flowers, so I received the smell of death. You fooled me with the illusion of Daisy, so I received…nothing. My entire life, this is all I worked for. I abandoned my humble origins, I became involved in bootlegging, and I sacrificed the thought of relationships for the thought of one with Daisy.

I did it all for Daisy. How could I not see this? As I eased into the facade that would win Daisy over, the facade of Daisy eased into me. I wasn’t close. I wasn’t close to achieving my desire. Because I now see the only way I might have done so was through a time machine. Nick was right. Turning back the clock is something all of us want, but no matter how hard we try, nothing lasts forever. Time changes people.

You comforted me, Ambition. When my patience ran out and all I wanted to do was rush to Daisy’s home, you sent me the vision of Daisy rushing home to me. You were that green light. Always reminding me of Daisy.

 

But you were a liar. You pushed me to criminal activity that defied my morals. You pushed me to push away everyone else. You pushed me to become a man that Daisy would never love. You pushed me to be a man that I would never love. I was naive, your perfect victim. You held me in your long, cold, pale fingers. You swayed me like a baby. Whispering the nursery rhymes of Daisy to me. Even the dreams I had as you rocked me back and forth, were all about Daisy. And instead of marrying Daisy, it seems to me now that I married you.

 

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Ambition, you did it all for your entertainment. You did it all to see how things would unfold. But I didn’t realize this until you guided that bullet into the center of my heart. The pain of the gunshot is nothing compared to your betrayal, old sport. You were the sole relationship I had left. You were my only companion. Was I your only companion too? Or did you also leave Daisy as blind as myself? Or perhaps you left her alone; that’s why she never called. She wasn’t as desperate as you left me. Her kind and pure heart would never get involved in criminal activity to be with me. She would never deny her origins to be with me. She would never leave Tom for me.

 

If you had left me alone, I might have been depressed for some time, but time heals, right? But how could I know? I could never move passed my aspirations of Daisy as long as you were there. I never got to experience time healing me, or time changing me. Only time stealing Daisy from me; only time flying away no matter how much a grasped onto that 5 years; both I and Daisy suffered from the loss of each other.

 

But time was not the issue…it was you. As I reunited with Daisy, I felt that time had come back. It had come back to reconnect Daisy and me. It had come back to return our youth. It had come back to return our love. But you sent me a sign: I broke the clock. I broke the clock because you sent me that sign. A sign to remind me that you controlled time. Whenever you wanted, you could send me that hope of 5 years ago. But whenever you wanted, you could also leave me waiting for a call; and that was the last thing I’d ever do. I was desperate. I was so desperate to have the richest, prettiest girl acknowledge me. To establish my self-worth. If I could be with her, I would be good enough for this world. At one point, I truly did have her to myself. But time steals.

 

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When I came back after five years, I was overjoyed to see her in my home. She made it look so beautiful. But alas, you push me too much, dear Ambition. You crossed my boundaries several times, but also hers this time. You wanted her to leave Tom. It was not enough that she cared for you, that she loved you, that she would be with you. Was it not enough that she was cheating her marriage for you? Was it not enough that she broke her wedding vows? Was it not enough proof that she loved you? At the meeting where you manipulated her to tell Tom she never loved him, is when you took over me. You always kept yourself close, whispering in my ear like a devil, but you had never embodied me.

 

 

You possessed me, and you scared Daisy away from me. She was so frightened as you pleaded with her, I could see it, but what could I do? What was I supposed to do? I could not move. I could not see the world. All I could see was Daisy, or rather the illusion of Daisy. You convinced me she was still the same person, but now I know, time changes people. I’m the only one that didn’t change. I’m the only one that kept dreaming of the past. Look where that has gotten me. For Daisy, I wish her the best. I want her to be happy with her daughter. Though, I don’t know if she’ll be happy with her husband. You know, Nick told me that Daisy wished for her daughter to be a fool because that’s the best thing a girl could be.

 

But that’s exactly why I loved Daisy; because she wasn’t a fool. Because she knew her self-worth. But of course, time steals. Time changes, too. And now, she quietly accepts Tom’s antics. But at the very least, she knows this, and she’s not running around chasing him as a fool would be.

 

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For you Ambition, I wish you nothing but limit. I won’t deny, I was very solaced by your presence, but I only wish your presence had an extent. I only wish you wouldn’t invade a person’s morals and lifestyle. I only wish you would stay at a distance, just peering over the shoulder like an angel. But I now know, the only way to keep you at a distance is if an individual dares to push you away. You lead me to much pain, and ultimately death. And for others, you cut off any relationships I might’ve had with them. Because of you, I pushed away the people I cared for.

 

 

 

 

Now, my father grieves my death, though I’ve always been the worst son. I disclaimed him, but he does not disclaim me. Oh, how I wish I could jump out of this coffin, hug him tight, beg him to forgive me, smell the flowers again, and truly live this time. But time can do everything, except rewind.

 

Dear Ambition, only death did us part. I hope your next victim will have the courage to shut you out. I hope their morals are strong enough to outweigh your evil spirit. Goodbye, for now, old sport.

 

With lowest regards, 

your ex-victim


Citations:

  1. Daisy Portrait
  2. Gatsby’s blood in the water
  3. Daisy and Gatsby
  4. Broken Clock

The cave of ‘Reality’ .

The cave of ‘Reality’ .

Plato’s “Allegory of the cave” is a simple, yet insightful idea of how we perceive the world. Ever since the first publication of it, the short story has been analyzed, annotated, discussed, and studied throughout the generations- and will continue to be studied as time marches on.

As you would already and unsurprisingly know, we too have studied the ancient texts of Plato’s work. We’ve annotated them multiple times, and I would like to bring one of my annotations into light for you. My fifth journal entry, and my first annotation of Plato’s “Allegory of the cave” , in which the task was to write the allegory of ‘seeing the light’ in response to Plato’s short story.

This is a typical photo of 'seeing the light'- typically associated with a near death experience. (Trevor Hunt/Getty Photo)
This is a typical photo of ‘seeing the light’- typically associated with a near death experience. (Trevor Hunt/Getty Photo)

The entry begins by introducing Plato, and his short story “Allegory of the cave” . We open the paragraph with the sentence “Plato’s ‘Allegory of the cave’ is a philosophical tragedy, in which Socrates portrays a group of prisoners guessing at what objects lie behind them, whilst chained up in a cave.” . We then divulge into the key idea of the story, where we analyze the freed prisoner.

The second paragraph in the journal entry specifically touches up on his initial fears to the light, and how he gets accustomed to it, and gains the ability to see the world of light. This paragraph also regards and describes the sorrowful part of which he returns to the prisoners in an attempt to help them see the truth, but none believe him. This is also the product of the foreshadowing embodied in the line “a philosophical tragedy” . The main sentence I want to go over in this paragraph is the line: “At first, he is reluctant to go out of the cave, because he fears the ‘light’ . Over time, he gets accustomed to the ‘light’ and comes to the epiphany that the ‘light’ is true reality.” . This sentence is a keystone of my argument, because it closely relates to the idea of how restricting a cave can be- how dark it must be for light to bring harm to your eyes. Another sentence that describes how the cave affects peers is: “He returns to the cave to share his discovery with the prisoners, but none believe him.” , because this shows how the darkness affects those who have yet to see the light. The darkness not only shrouds their eyes, but their judgment.

I use these implications to create a theme statement that describes the meaning of this ‘light’ . That this ‘light’ is something one can only experience on their own, and that nobody can give you this light. I believe that this theme statement cannot get any simpler: you must seize your goals and ambitions using opportunities for you, and you alone.

Furthermore, the ‘cave’ and its darkness is very limiting, for one cannot see anything in these deep shadows. Plato not only tries to tell us we live in an illusion we perceive is true, and he implies not only that we refuse to believe the truth because we believe what we know is already true, but that we also refuse to believe out of fear that we are wrong. A perfect out-of-world example is later scenes in Pleasantville, in which the black and white folks fear the full coloured, and begin to distance themselves from all colour and change. A good personal example is this very blog post. Truth be told, I feel like I’m missing something crucial, or that I’ve veered far off the original prompt. Nevertheless, I am continuing to write, in the belief that my work is near perfection. Fortune favors the bold… right?

All jokes aside, I remember and know this specific cave of my life, that I continue to wander around in, and that cave is titled ‘reality’ . Somewhat cliché, but my perception of ‘reality’ isn’t existence itself, but the natural laws that exist within ‘reality’ . I’m certain you have heard the words; “Life isn’t fair”, or “The world is cruel” – and while it appears to be true, I disagree. Life cannot be so simple to be ‘unfair’, or ‘cruel’ . I think that is a mere excuse that people turn to when facing misery and misfortune. Every man and woman is born crying, and we all share crimson red blood. Nobody is born different, no matter their status, net worth, ideals, or their power. Those born in nobility have just as many opportunities as those born in poverty, I believe. The noblemen are responsible for assisting the world through business, for they will bring our collective intelligence as a species to the very extremity. The impoverished are responsible for staying alive and protecting people, for they will grow strong, and ensure that future generations never even have to imagine the poverty they go through. Disaster, success, and progress are all the same word. Every blessing is a curse, and every curse a blessing. The glass isn’t half-empty or half-full, it’s just there for you to enjoy. The task you were born for is something I don’t know, nor would I tell you if I did. We all have this cave of ‘reality’ – and while it may be restricting, once you surface, no cave will be too deep to crawl out of. Same goes for me- I’ll get out of this cave, and then I’ll level them all, forcing the prisoners to embrace the sky!

 

A quote from Plato describing his own thoughts about Reality. Grover, Kiran. 2017.

Credits: 4edges, (Trevor Hunt/Getty Photo), Grover, Kiran. (2017).



A Choice of Pursuing Desires

A Choice of Pursuing Desires

The roughness of pursuing a dream or meeting expectations can leave a person flushed with exhaustion. The anxiety of avoiding disappointing others might lead to a lot of confusion that one doesn’t know how to handle. To deal with this, one can either run away from their problem or face it head-on. Gulab Bibi, the protagonist of the short story, The Poison of the Blue Rose, is torn between pursuing a personal passion and choosing to comply. Through Gulab Bibi’s experiences, Yasmin Marri demonstrates that when an uncertain individual wish to pursue a personal desire, they may choose to disappoint or adhere to society, resulting in the individual experiencing inner conflict.

Choosing between loyalty and pursuing a personal ambition might leave a person feeling overwhelmed. Doubts and disagreements develop as a result of this. Gulab Bibi falls in love with Rafiq, but her parents have already arranged for her to marry someone else. The narrator reads the lines on her hand and tells her that Rafiq is her fate. Gulab Bibi is at a loss for what to do and is overcome with emotion as a result of this internal conflict. She is confronted with the truth that she cannot disappoint her parents, despite her heart’s desire. When a person’s fantasy is broken by an unfulfilling fact, they may clearly understand what is best for them and their future, even if they are unhappy at the time. Gulab Bibi must next make a decision that will determine whether or not she will be happy in the future.

Individuals may feel compelled to select the polar opposite of what they desire. Society’s pressure can change a person’s feelings and make them question if a decision is right or bad. Gulab Bibi decides not to marry Rafiq after being pressed by her parents. She seeks help in yearning to the narrator’s house months after their previous contact in order to rekindle hope. She wears her wedding gown and is ready to marry, yet she still has contradictions. Despite the narrator’s efforts to relieve her of the burden, she informs the narrator that she will never forget Rafiq. The likelihood of regret is a crucial aspect that comes into play at this point in an individual’s decision-making process. The fear of not being satisfied in the future as a result of a previous decision might keep a person yearning for redemption. The fear of making the wrong decision can follow a person until they make it, and sometimes even after they do it. Gulab Bibi, on the other hand, trusts the narrator to lead her to a life without regrets.

Eventually, one must accept their faith because it is the only way to move forward in life. Gulab Bibi’s questions regarding the narrator’s prior love life triggered numerous memories that the narrator had previously suppressed, demonstrating that no one can truly escape their past because it will always be there no matter how hard they try to forget it. The conflict is handed on to the narrator at this point in the story. The concept of the blue rose is introduced to the readers in Wonders about the Past. It represents poison and the agony that can be inflicted by one’s past mistakes. Gulab Bibi recognized that when faced with the choice of pursuing a passion or conforming to expectations, the most sensible solution was to conform because it was for her own good. Even though she desired the one thing she couldn’t have, true love, the notion of disappointment grew excruciating.

Citations

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/anatomy-brave-decisions-saurabh-singhal

https://medicalxpress.com/news/2018-12-conform-social-norm-people.html

https://www.flickr.com/photos/41087279@N00/327746344

The Tragic Downfall of Shakespeare’s Macbeth

The Tragic Downfall of Shakespeare’s Macbeth

      Shakespeare’s play Macbeth focuses on the interplay between the forces of good and evil leading to Macbeth’s tragedy. The play was written as a way to appeal to the current king’s paranoia on witches and the destruction they brought with them, or to make light of the situation, mocking him. For future context, Shakespeare’s Macbeth differs from the real one. The historical figure of Macbeth was the King of Scotland after Duncan’s assassination at aged 38, he ruled Scotland into peace and stability, being beloved by many of the people for 17 years. Nevertheless, Shakespeare’s story takes a darker approach, telling a story of tragedy due to ambition. In this blog, Macbeth’s internal conflicts and changing morals throughout the story will be discussed to give further context into the idea of how people become victims to themselves.

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     At the start of the story, Macbeth is merely mentioned. As an audience we pick up clues of his character and roles through the witches’ discussion and phrases such as,

“when the battle is lost and won, and, “there to meet with Macbeth.(I. 1. 4,7)

     These quotes represent his importance in the story, and how he will win a battle currently being fought; foreshadowing his gallant nature. We then mainly learn of his qualities through a sergeant’s report of the battle to King Duncan. The sergeant says,

“For brave Macbeth–well he deserves that name—”

and Duncan says, O’Valiant cousin! Worthy gentleman! (I. 2.18,26)

     These quotes reflect specific qualities of Macbeth such as: chivalrous, courageous, brave, and honourable. It also depicts his status and value; how he is loyal to the crown, and is beloved and trusted by everyone around him.

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      Towards the middle of the story, Macbeth’s intentions and morals begin to waver. After hearing the prophecy that he will become King, he immediately thinks of killing Duncan. As appalling as he may have found it, it shows how those actions are not out of his reach. Throughout the middle, he struggles between: his ambitions to become king and quickening the prophecies, and wanting to uphold his righteous morals correlating to his duty to protect Duncan. However, through Lady Macbeth’s manipulation and ridicule of his manliness when he decides not to kill Duncan, it ultimately forces him to commit the crime. Moreover, near the start of Duncan’s murder, Macbeth begins to represent the motif “appearances vs. reality” where he sees a floating dagger. This symbolizes and foreshadows his descent into insanity and greed.Is this a dagger dangling before me? Staging the strange world of Macbeth |  Theatre | The Guardian

      Macbeth’s final change in emotions includes both guilt and paranoia. He becomes consumed in his greed, striving to stay king forever. He lacks relationships around him, trusting only himself. His paranoia builds to the point where he murders anything threatening him, such as the witches prophecies to beware of Macduff; Macbeth then sends orders for his family to be killed. He is at the point of no return, with him stating,

“I am in blood / Stepped in so far, that, should I wade no more, / Returning were as tedious as go o’er” (III. 4.136–8).

     This essentially means he has committed so many evil acts that his reputation and morals are poisoned; he3,564 Evil Heart Stock Photos, Pictures & Royalty-Free Images - iStockhas solidified his fate of going to ‘hell’ instead of ‘heaven’. He goes from someone working with fate, to someone working against it, trying to change the natural order. His final moments enforce the true meaning behind a tragic hero.

      In conclusion, Macbeth depicts the tragedy of Macbeth. A man once regarded as honourable and loyal, turned into a tyrant full of greed by his own ambition. The guilt and blur between good and evil potent within him, eventually making him insane and paranoid. His confident nature due to the witches’ prophecies betrays him; therefore, leading him to be manipulated and pessimistic at the end. However, it begs the question, was Macbeth’s true downfall the act of his own self-ambition? Or the works of unnatural forces such as the witches?

An Analysis of Macbeth's Ambition

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The consequences of greed fueled ambition

The consequences of greed fueled ambition

Ambition is a quality that every successful person in any facet needs to reach the level they want. Without ambition there would be a lack of ambition in an individual; there would be no direction to help pave the way to success. Being ambitious is important, however, becoming overly ambitious and greedy is when individuals begin to see a turn for the worst. When one is overly self-centered in the pursuit of their goals, they will often cause trouble for others around them in turn causing detrimental consequences for both themselves and their peers. Those who can find a balance between being ambitious while also preserving the relationships they have with others often lead better lifestyles and have a better overall impact on their surroundings. However, those who are over-zealous will often find that their ambition serves as a detriment to their life. The character arc of the main character Macbeth in the William Shakespeare play, Macbeth, exemplifies the shift of an individual from a healthy type of ambition to an overly zealous, greed-driven ambition. 

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Initially in the play Macbeth, we see the main character as an ambitious, brave, and honourable man within the kingdom of Scotland. He holds a respectable position within the kingdom as the Thane of Glamis and general within the Scottish military. His ambition and leadership led the Scots to two enormous victories against the Thane of Cawdor’s rebellion and the Norse invasion of Scotland. However, once he is presented with a tempting prophecy by the 3 witches and a new role within the kingdom by King Duncan, we begin to see his humble ambition turn into a greed-fueled one. He begins to act in ways that he previously wouldn’t have solely because of his hunger for power. Macbeth kills off many of his old friends and acquaintances to both gain the throne and preserve it. His ambition is now only aligned with his continual obsession over being the King of Scotland, with his actions supporting this conclusion. 

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Selfish temptations are difficult to overcome and can often cause an individual to act in a harmful way. If remained uncontrolled, an individual’s ambition has the potential to spiral out of control until the consequences inflicted as a result are irreversible. For this reason, it is crucial that if an individual wants to pursue their goals aligned with their ambition, they need to establish boundaries and a balance that will prevent them from becoming excessively zealous.

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Expectations and Identity

And after seeing, once again, my mother’s disappointed face, something inside me began to die. I hated the tests, the raised hopes and failed expectations.

When an individual is forced to conform to the expectations set by their guardians, it causes the individual to become miserable, and therefore rebel against these expectations, forming their true identity.

“Two Kinds” is a coming-of-age story, in which the narrator, Jing-mei, struggles to forge her own sense of identity in the face of her strong-willed mother’s dream that she become a “prodigy.” Jing-mei is caught between her Chinese mother’s traditional ideas about how to raise a daughter and her own development as a Chinese American girl straddling two cultures. Like many immigrants to the United States, Jing-mei’s mother has created idealized visions of her adopted country as a land of opportunity where all dreams may be realized. The first line of the story introduces this central idea: “My mother believed you could be anything you wanted to be in America.” Having absorbed idealized visions of the “American Dream” from television and other forms of mass media, Jing-mei’s mother manages to fabricate a seemingly endless supply of success fantasies for her daughter. Each new inspiration about the nature of her daughter’s destiny to become a “prodigy” is sparked by what she sees on television, reads in women’s magazines, or reads about in such mass-market publications as Ripley’s Believe-it-or-Not. Jing-mei soon finds that her mother’s determination that she becomes a prodigy threatens to stifle her own sense of who she is. Ironically, it is out of defiance against her mother that she ultimately does forge her own sense of personal identity. Jing-mei’s sense of failure to embody her mother’s hopes and dreams is at first distressful to her: I hated the tests, the raised hopes and failed expectations. When she looks in the mirror one night, she sees only her mother’s vision of her as a failure and a disappointment:

I looked in the mirror above the bathroom sink and when I saw only my face staring back—and that it would always be this ordinary face—I began to cry. Such a sad, ugly girl!

The face Jing-mei first sees in the mirror is the face of who she is in her mother’s eyes. “Trying to scratch out the face in the mirror” symbolizes her attempt to erase or obliterate her mother’s image of her as a failure. Through this acknowledgment to herself that she is not the person her mother wants her to be, she begins to glimpse an image of her own definition of herself emerging from the mirror.

And then I saw what seemed to be the prodigy side of me—because I had never seen that face before. I looked at my reflection, blinking so I could see more clearly. The girl staring back at me was angry, powerful. This girl and I were the same. I had new thoughts, willful thoughts, or rather thoughts filled with lots of won’ts. I won’t let her change me, I promised myself. I won’t be what I’m not.

Through this insight, Jing-mei for the first time articulates her determination to live by her own self-definition, rather than those ill-fitting “selves” her mother continues to impose upon her. As the story progresses, Jing-mei becomes more and more openly defiant against her mother’s wishes. Later, when her mother insists that she continue to attend piano lessons after she has made it clear that the piano is not her calling, Jing-mei further strengthens her resolve not to conform to her mother’s wishes. This is also an important moment in the development of Jing-mei’s cultural identity. For the first time, she articulates her resistance to her mother in terms of the cultural gap between her mother’s traditional Chinese ideas about daughters being obedient and her own perspective as a strong-willed Chinese American girl. When her mother continues to insist that she attend her piano lesson, Jing-mei becomes openly defiant. Through this assertion of her own will against her mother, Jing-mei strengthens her sense of personal identity in opposition to her mother. Jing-mei begins to sense the emergence of her true, inner self.


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The Duality of Ambition

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When people have ambition, they have the strong desire to achieve success. It motivates people to become something they see as greater than themselves. It is a force that helps them picture what they want to be in the future and motivates them to chase that version of themselves. Ambition may help motivate people to become better than they are, but it’s danger is in the extent effort is put into completing their goal. Ambition is great in motivating people but if paired with high expectations, people can fall prey to the idea of quick success and that eventually leads to their downfall. In the short story, ‘Two Kinds’ by Amy Tan, the author presents the idea that when an impatient person starts off highly ambitious with equally high expectations, they work extremely hard at the start, however, if they do not achieve the results in a short amount of time, they get discouraged and frustrated leading to them quitting and losing their ambition and their sense of their potential.

Failure a stepping stone to success

Typically, a person’s imagination can empower their ambition and lead to them dreaming of grandeur or greatness. These goals and these imagined scenarios lead to high expectations of themselves. People who act on ambition often start off extremely motivated and work as hard as they can in order to try to achieve their goal. Their ambition pushes them to do as much and whatever they can to reach what they see as their highest potential. Easily excitable, they are filled to the brim with motivation and aim to do whatever it takes to make it to that point. People love the idea of achievement and can become so obsessed with it that they simply chase success without really thinking. 

“I pictured this prodigy part of me as many different images, trying each one on for size.”

Jing-mei is given this idea of her being perfect. She imagines a world where she was a prodigy and it ramps up her expectations even more. This increases her ambition and her motivation to become a prodigy. Through becoming a prodigy, she thinks she would make her parents proud and would be perfect. Individuals believe that through extremely hard work and pure determination, they can accomplish success quickly and without too much of a hitch. This in turn motivates them even more and they begin doing all that they can in order to improve themselves. This can be very beneficial to a person’s growth and may help them become a better version of themselves. Eventually, they face their first obstacle or their first failure. Their reaction dictates the results of their ambition. If they are motivated enough to keep going, they keep going and it leads to self-growth. For some people, they are flattened by failure and are immediately unmotivated.

Failure and obstacles are not a bad thing. In fact, they should be expected and embraced. Impatient people with high amounts of ambition have as much motivation as any other person, perhaps even more, and they try to overcome every obstacle through brute force and effort. However, even with all of their ambition and hard work to start it off, if the bar is simply too high in a too short amount of time, they may get frustrated if they are too impatient. When they encounter their first roadblock or failure, they are confused because they are working so hard. Expecting better of themselves or more, they are very disappointed with the final result. It may take more time for them to develop their skill and they do not feel as if they can become the person they want to be. They begin to get mad at themselves for not reaching their goal immediately, despite their hard work. It may be more difficult than they previously thought. To add to all of this, they feel a sense that their opportunity to be great is fleeting. Jing-mei experiences this through the prodigy side she sees in herself pushing her to hurry up. As a child, her mother tries to bring greatness out of her and she is given more tests.

“But sometimes the prodigy in me became impatient. “If you don’t hurry up and get me out of here, I’m disappearing for good,” it warned. “And then you’ll always be nothing.””

This realization that they are not yet what they wanted to be causes all of the expectations that lifted them up and motivated them to be great to crash down because they were expecting greatness. All they got was a bitter failure or a half-success.  This high amount of but also rushed effort only results in what they see as a mediocre result, causing them to be dissatisfied with their progress. Failed expectations lead to doubt in themselves and their ability to become what they want to be. Sometimes, this doubt begins to creep up on a person. Failure to meet their expectations makes them feel inadequate. This inadequacy they feel drains them of what is left of their motivation.

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Motivation is easy to gain and hard to act on. It’s even harder to maintain. High expectations that eventually are not met in a short period of time lead to doubt. They not only doubt their ability to achieve the goal they are pursuing but also begin to doubt themselves as well. Individuals begin to doubt their ability to be great and this doubt eliminates the motivation they had at the start. Their intense motivation at the start is immediately diminished. Sometimes, they not only lose motivation to pursue their goal but they also lose motivation to improve themselves as a whole. The failure not only causes doubt that results in little to no motivation but it also can be quite demoralizing and detrimental to one’s perception of themselves. In “Two Kinds”, this is shown through Jing-mei’s gradual acceptance of her normality and her perception that she cannot be more. After her argument with her mother and her comment about her mother’s dead children, Jing-mei reveals that her failure as a child playing the piano and her constant mindset that she could not be more than herself affected her in her later life. She allows the shortcomings she experienced in childhood to affect her future decisions.

“In the years that followed, I failed her so many times, each time asserting my own will, my right to fall short of expectations.”

Jing-mei is unable to motivate herself to be more than who she is now. She treats it as if she had simply accepted herself. Self-acceptance is great and being able to love who one is is important and both can be lost in too much ambition. However, Jing-mei has not really accepted herself causing this ability to accept who she is. It is less self-acceptance and more of her giving up on herself. She gives up on trying to be better than what she thinks she is and puts little to no effort in anything. This leads to an empty and discontented life where Jing-mei simply does what she can rather than broaden her horizons. Her belief that “I could only be me.” is her declaring her belief that she can only be who she is currently. This belief hinders her ability to grow. Sometimes individuals can give up on themselves and that can be dangerous. They may feel as if they have hit their ceiling and use it as an excuse not to try. This acceptance of their current self is not self-acceptance but rather self-denial, using their current limitations as rationale. They stop trying to improve themselves because they have lost hope in their ability to pursue their goals.

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I experienced this in my personal life as a pianist. While I do not take lessons anymore, I still try my hardest to improve when I can and I have struggled with too much ambition leading to too little ambition. Ambition and how much of it you have is a very powerful motivator when it comes to trying to improve oneself. In piano, I always strive to be better than I am now and I try to learn how to be a better pianist. I practice regularly and (used to) take lessons in order to learn all of the skills I need to succeed. The teachers provide me with sheets so that I can learn pieces that gradually improve my skills as a pianist. Sometimes, however, I find myself getting too hasty. I see how others succeed in the field and feel that my own skills as a pianist are inadequate. I want to be a much better pianist and I am motivated to improve even more. This zeal for being a better pianist does give me the energy and motivation I need to improve but this also leads to me setting high expectations for myself to achieve. I want to improve exponentially so I choose to try to learn pieces on my own with little to no guidance. Not only do I choose pieces and aim for quick improvement but sometimes I also choose ones that are significantly harder than my skill level can handle. I fail to realize that pieces that are too hard do not always lead to improvement but lead to frustration and failure to the point that I end up giving up. My motivation is drained because of the failed expectations I had set. Feeling empty and regretful because of my failed expectations, I tend to try and learn easier songs in order to try and make up for the failure. Doubt stops me from trying anything harder than my skill level and sometimes I even choose to learn pieces easier than what my skill level can handle in order to try and make up for my failure. The lack of moderation in my ambition leads to either too much stress or too little courage.

Ambition is neither a good or a bad thing. It is simply a motivator for actions, both good and bad, to be taken. It encourages people to pursue their personal goals and wants. With ambition, people can be very successful and set themselves up to achieve great things. However, too much ambition can lead to an unhealthy pursuit of the goal where motivation from ambition can lead to an extremely challenging goal that gives a person high expectations. When the high expectations are not reached due to little preparation or a lack of time, people lose hope in themselves and their ability to be successful in what they are pursuing. This leads to the exact opposite of how they started off; they end up being unmotivated and have too little ambition. This little amount of ambition ends up making them feel like they have little to no potential, giving them justification to refuse growth.

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